Taking that first step…

“Put one foot in front of the other, and soon you’ll be walking through the door.” Isn’t that how the song from that animated Christmas movie went?? Whether it is or not, believe me we can all learn a little something from that catchy Christmas jingle.

Trust me when I say that moving forward and “taking the first step” can be TERRIFYING, & not to mention incredibly difficult…mentally, physically, and emotionally. It has taken me 4 years to come to terms with the hand I was dealt, and the path that God has chosen for me. Did I come to having peace with this situation easily? ABSOLUTELY NOT! There was a lot of blood, screaming, sleepless nights, and a whole lot of tears…like a lot of tears, and there still is. Yes, I kept telling myself that things were going to get better, and I knew it wasn’t going to be an easy road but I never thought it was going to be this hard. Friends and family would tell me that there is a light at the end of the tunnel, and in my mind I knew that, but to actually believe it is a whole other story.

Only recently have I been in the mindset of being ready to take the next step and have been truly seeking for a healthier lifestyle. Sure, I’m always hoping for my pain to go away, and my anxiety to disappear, or to be a happier person, but I have to face reality that some of those things may never change, therefore I have to make the most of what my life is now. I have to remember to not let these “invisible diseases” control my life, like I did for so many years.

Am I always healthy, and doing what’s best for me? NOPE. But, I’m not perfect and living a happy, and healthy life all around takes time, and practice. I admit, I have my days where I watch tv and finish my brother’s left overs from the night before, and not change out of my pajamas. The thing is, with changing your lifestyle is not be too hard on yourself and to not beat yourself up for something that you’re not happy about. If you made your cheat day, a “cheat week” which we have all done, notice it and just try to move forward and try again. IMG_7778.jpg

Right now, this lifestyle change is a work in progress for me. I’m always learning something new and trying to do better all around, I think thats what keep’s me going. I find it very difficult to motivate myself, therefore by learning from my doctors, and doing what they suggest, I am moving forward…I may have a set back or two, but by writing down goals, reading, learning, eating right, being around people who make you feel good, and taking care of myself, I am taking taking those first steps in recovery and life. And you can too!

Recently, I had a very bad day depression wise. I woke up feeling this huge weight on my body, like a polar bear was just sitting on me… I sat up in bed, and just laid back down because I was dreading the thought of waking up, having to brush my teeth, walking downstairs, taking my medication, having to make coffee, ect…All of those things are simple tasks that people do everyday and don’t have to think twice about. However, someone with depression thinks of these tasks as major road blocks. The important part to this story is what I’m about to tell you, it’s everything that happened occured after I got out of bed. I brushed my teeth, washed my face, and walked downstairs, even though it was incredibly difficult. Normally when I’m feeling this way, I would burry myself in tv, shut down, not talk to anyone, and not move or care about anything for the rest of the day. How was this day going to be any different than the rest of those days? I received a phone call from my best friend asking me how I was doing, and I explained that I wasn’t having the best day, and even though I didn’t feel like doing anything, I got ready, put a t-shirt on, leggings, and just drove to her house to be with her. THAT’S THE DIFFERENCE! and that was a day that I made a huge step in my recovery, and I was damn proud of myself. By just TAKING THE FIRST STEP, and removing myself out of the environment I was in, changed my mindset for the day. It was a small change that made a huge difference.

I want to share some of my favorite tips on some easy ways to improve your day to hopefully make yourself a little happier, calmer, and healthier.

  • ESSENTIAL OILS – I have an air diffusor and every single night I use essential oils while going to sleep, and trust me they help!
  • MEDITATION – Listen, I can sometimes have the attention span of a squirrel lol but, I am trying to make meditation a bigger part of my life. One way, is I go on youtube and look up, “sleep meditation music” they have thousands of different options you can choose from, go for it and try!
  • BE COMPLIANT – Whether it’s with medication, or therapy, be sure to take the correct dosage, not too much or too little, and be sure to stay on top of therapy appointments. Sometimes it can be incredibly difficult to keep up with therapy appointments, but being compliant is so incredibly important in living a healthy life.
  • TAKE BABY STEPS WITH YOUR GOALS – By having smaller goals to start with, it is much easier to have a manageable day rather than giving yourself large goals that will make you stressed out out if you do not complete them.

Try those to start, and leave comments down below if you try them, or if you have any other ideas that people can benefit from! Smile today!!

xoxo, Mads

5 thoughts on “Taking that first step…

  1. Keep Writing Madison. Not only is it beautifully written and cathartic
    but your words and experiences can be a source of inspiration and help so many people, who suffer in silence trying to cope. Good Luck!

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